“oh child, precious one
let your life shine like the sun
but you say ‘how long ’til i can come home
’til i can rest in Your arms again’
and I say ‘not long, but don’t miss this life and I’ll be
waiting ’til then’

live with the wonder of a child
pray with your arms open wide
love with a love that has no end
until I see you again

oh child, precious one
with each breath know you are loved…”
~ “until i see you again”… by mark schultz

The eagerness to see Him that I hear in these words is something I really want to have in my life. And.. I am eager to see Him. But I think the important point that is being made in this song is that — yes, we need to be eager for our eternal home and to see God. But we cannot let that eagerness overshadow our living in the here and now. We need to make sure to not let the eagerness become impatience.

It is so important for us to live in the present tense rather than in the future, because when I know that when I live in the future, I tend to lose sight of what God has for me right now. It’s important to look forward to heaven. It is also important, though, to live the life that He has given us. If it didn’t matter, He would have just taken us to heaven and skipped this whole step of us living on earth. When He is done using us for His glory on the earth, that is the time that we will eventually see Him. So.. for as long as we’re here, there is something of value that God wants to accomplish through us here. As long as I am alive, that means God wants to touch another person through me, it means He wants to bring me into another situation where I can choose to be a blessing in some way to somebody. There is a reason He has me here — on earth generally, and more specifically right here where I am at this point in my life. There are specific reasons, I believe, why He has had me at Edison for these past three years. I am praying that I have taken advantage of the opportunities given to me and that I have been a blessing and a light to everyone I have come in contact with there. I pray that I have “let [my] life shine like the sun,” as Mark says in this song.

While I am blessed with breath, I want to “live with the wonder of a child.” Have you ever noticed the way babies watch everything? They love to just look around them. A little one-year-old girl at my church that I babysit was at my home a few weeks ago. I took her outside, and we walked all over the place… she is afraid of grass, so she wouldn’t step into the yard, but she walked all over our little sidewalk and the driveway. She’d find a rock or whatever else to pick up. Stuff that I would normally overlook in my everyday life caught her eye, and she would examine it carefully. I want to have that wonder in my life too.

I want to “pray with [my] arms open wide”… It is so easy and all too often typical to put God in a box. We think something is too big or too hard or too much to ask Him for. But.. you know.. God is God. Nothing is too big or hard or much for Him. He tells us to ask Him for anything in His Name and He will do it. (John 14:13-15) In 1 John 3:21-23, we are told, “Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him. And this is his command: to believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as he commanded us.” Not that we are supposed to ask God for just anything that comes to mind. He is not our genie in a lamp. I think this is such a delicate subject, because it can be so easily misunderstood and misinterpreted. When we are in tune with God and with what He is teaching us — when we’re in the Word and seeking to obey and follow Him in all we do — our hearts are going to be changed, and our desires are going to mirror more and more what He wants for us. Read Psalm 37:4… We’re told here to delight our hearts in Him, and when we are doing this, He is going to give us the desires of our hearts. When I ask God for something little, I am not giving Him the chance to really “be God.” It is almost like I’m unconsciously thinking, “well, that is too big of a thing to ask, so…” But you know what? God doesn’t think that way. He says to ask Him anything. He wants us to pray with our arms open wide, to believe Him for the answer. He wants us to really pray and ask Him for something so great that we would have to know without a doubt that it happened because of God — and then to trust Him. No, we are not going to get everything we ever wanted… but is everything you ever wanted what you need? Everything I have ever wanted… I know that is not matching up with what my heart desires when I’m delighting myself in Him. I want to pray, though, expecting and knowing that He is going to answer me with whatever I need. I don’t want to limit my God by not believing – however unconscious my unbelief may be – that He has something great in store.

“Love with a love that has no end”… A love that has no boundaries or conditions or strings attached. Whether or not I might think somebody “deserves” to be loved, I need to love them. No matter what they may have done or said. Yeah, I know — it is so much easier said than done. But it is what Jesus has done for us, and we are called to be like Him. You know what else? Whenever I reach out and love the unlovely, the unlovable, I find that I am blessed through it just as much as they are, if not more. That is not the reason I choose to love them, but I know that God is rewarding having a heart for those who the world pushes aside and ignores.

So.. until I see God, this is what I am going to do — I am going to live with the wonder of a child. I am going to pray with my arms open wide. And I am going to love with a love that has no end. All of this brings so much joy to my life, and I know that through living in this way, others are seeing Him in me and in my life. I love the opportunities He’s given me to be a light for Him, to let my life shine like the sun.