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Life’s been kind of stressful lately. I know it gets that way sometimes, but it just has seemed exceptionally so this time around. Just with everything all piled together.

A friend of mine, knowing about all the stress and everything, told me Sunday afternoon to “just relax today, that’s an order!” So I tried. Monday morning came, and as I was gathering my clothes to go get dressed at 6:10, I got a text from the lady I work for on Mondays and Tuesdays, saying that she’d been called off of work for the day so I didn’t need to come. So.. I went back to bed.. but not before I sat there and contemplated for just a minute. I talked with God for a couple of minutes, and above all else, I so felt His arms around me as He whispered, “Just be still and know that I am God.”

As I was reading last night, I was on my way to that very verse, Psalm 46:10, when my eye was caught by another passage just a couple of pages earlier:

“Be still before the LORD
   and wait patiently for him…” – Psalm 37:7

Be still.

Before the Lord.

Wait patiently for Him.

Those words really captured my attention and made me stop and ponder. This was exactly what I needed to do. Be still before Him and wait patiently for Him. My circumstances are not mine to control or to worry about. My God has my life and my world in His so-strong hands. He is sovereign and all-powerful and knows not only exactly what I need, but also the exact fraction of a second that I need it. He knows so much better than I ever could. And He is up to something so much bigger than me. I just need to be still and wait.. patiently.

So I turned the page. I was almost to Psalm 46:10.

Again my eyes fell on a verse. Again it was a verse that God so directly put in my path:

“I waited patiently for the LORD;
   he turned to me and heard my cry.” – Psalm 40:1

Okay.. I know God answers prayer. I know He works miracles. I know He listens to me and loves me and has great things that He is doing in my life. But somehow.. just to read that verse at that very moment.. that was exactly the reassurance that I needed. One minute He tells me to be still and wait for Him patiently, and the next He shows me an instance of patient waiting being answered. It so reiterated what I have known and experienced for ages.

Sometimes I think it just takes being broken before Him though. It takes coming to the point where you have to let go of everything and say to Him, “I can’t do this anymore. I need You to do it instead.” It’s the realization that I never could do it.. I just thought I could or wanted to try.. and the action that results from the realization that only He can make beautiful what looks like such chaos in my life right now. It’s the realization and the action of believing that not only can He make it beautiful, but He will, and even now, at this very instant, is doing just that.

I wish knowing this equaled easily being patient and still before God as I wait for Him, but.. I honestly don’t have that down yet. Some days I’m patient. Others I am the furthest thing from it. But I’m learning. He is teaching me.

As I trust Him.

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Thank you so much for your every prayer for Jon and his family. Please keep on praising, praying, and believing for his next scans to be great. Praise for all the healing that has been taking place and pray that it will continue, with no returning tumors. If you’re not familiar with this family, please take a few minutes to catch up on his story. Also, please continue praying for a job for my daddy. We are still waiting. The job that was he was promised was being made for him is no more. He had an interview two weeks ago tomorrow and heard yesterday that they are still interviewing for that position. I don’t know when they’ll be finished. God knows, though. Please keep praying, praising, and believing. God is big.