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“Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy
Why is pain a part of us
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You’re here
You’re real
I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts
Even when it’s hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars
You steady my heart

I’m not gonna worry
I know that You got me
Right inside the palm of your hand
Each and every moment
What’s good and what gets broken
Happens just the way that You plan

And I will run to You
You’re my refuge in Your arms
And I will sing to You
Cause of everything You are

You steady my heart”

~ “steady my heart”.. by kari jobe

Even when it hurts.

Even when it’s hard.

And yes. Even when it all falls apart.

I choose to run to Him. I choose to trust Him. Because He is God. He always has been and always will be. He is the only One who will never ever let me down or leave me.

These are things that I have always believed, for as long as I can remember. And I knew they were true.

But over the past few years.. He has proven their truth to me countless times.

Through each moment that I felt was too hard for me, He taught me the reality that it was too hard for me.. by myself. Where I end, where I stop trying to make it on my own, where I cease to attempt solving my own problems and instead begin to lay them down at His feet… where I surrender everything I am to Him.. as well as all that I am not and never will be. That is where He starts. It’s the place where He begins to wrap His arms around me and heal my hurting heart. It is the place where He teaches me that my job is just to let go and to trust Him – not to try and get through the hard days by my own abilities.

Nothing ever happens that He does not already know about. No matter what. He knows. And He’s got it covered. However deep and chasm-like, no matter how hopeless and desperate, He is still God.

And because of that, I can trust Him. Because of it, I will trust Him.

Because of it, I choose to sing to Him. Because of everything He is.

Throughout all chaos, He stays.

No. Matter. What.

In Isaiah 49:15-16, He says:

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.”

A mother cannot forget her baby. And compared with how much she loves her baby, with how far from forgetting that baby she could ever be, He loves us still more than that.

However my heart may shake, He steadies it.